It strikes once again,

I'm trying to describe what I'm feeling as of now, but I'm having a very hard time trying to put these feelings into words. 

What am I feeling? Many things at once. 

I feel like i'm going backwards. Like i'm making all the wrong choices. Like i'm about the crack. 

Nothing in particular is wrong. -but these little things, just piling up, taunting me, waiting for me to crack. 

I should be able to open up to people who i'm close to, but I can't. 

I can't find the words to express what i'm feeling. I feel like i'm drowning in this feeling. 

This feeling has been the reason I've been hating being alone. -because being left alone with my thoughts is torture. Agonizing. 

I'm wreck. 

Whats the point?