So you sailed away?

Wow. January's almost over. That was quick.

Anyway, this week is the third week of school and boy is it tiring. :( Waking up, going to school, come home, eat lunch, homework, tuition, homework. That's my cycle right there. Pretty awesome ain't it? I canceled tennis today. I pretty much gave up on tennis a long time a go. Plus, this year apparently MSSKL only has under 18 which means MSSM would only have under 18 too, which ALSO means, there is NO WAY i'll get picked for MSSM this year :) What a great year it is.

So I'm in Performing Arts again. Though I got accepted in MUN. I decided to enter Performing Arts cause everyone else is in it. Haha. Yeah.

Been playing the guitar lately. Fun :) Fingers hurts like shit.

Enough of an update for this week.

<3

Very dull month, indeed.

The depth of pure blue.

I like to close my eyes and imagine how I'll be like in 15 years. -but sometimes, we don't become the people we expect to be. Am I the person I expected to be 3 years a go? I guess nothing turns out as we expect in life.

WHEN NOTHING GOES RIGHT.

This is really getting on my nerves. First, I don't get in the class I want to be. Not because I don't deserve to or anything but just cause. ugh, then, I don't get the cool teacher. I get the lame ass ones. Fuck man. This is NOT fair. Screw it. I hate school. School can burn. BURN BURN BURN BURN.

UGH.

Went out today. Boring. I.HATE.GOING.OUT. I wanted to watch Paranormal Activity, but noooooo. ugh.

On a brighter note, I might be taking up English Lit :D Yayyy. Hope I'd be able to (y).

I want to freaking go to sc2 man. Someone, help? :(

Sigh. 2010 doesn't seem like its going so good...

I need something or someone to turn it around.

Also, i have changed my background to white. Cause the black one just hurt my eyes. But now the white one too hurts my eyes.

I rant to much. Shut up, Nana.

Anyway, I've been wanting to go into lots of stuff lately. Like, I feel like I wanna do more public speaking and debating and stuff. Like MUN does in school. But stupidly I didn't join that CCA club. STUPID, right. I just feel like being more active this year in other things BESIDES SPORTS.

Sports teacher has been pastering me to go for training after school so I can be in the athletics team, but I just don't like running! I hate it.

Plus, I have tuition everyday, how to go for training? Sigh. I feel like I'm letting him down :(

I don't even feel like playing MSSKL / MSSM this year. SOMETHINGS DEFINITELY WRONG WITH ME.

I barely chat now days too. I'd like to apologize to the people who I usually chat with. I know i've been off lately. Its just my mood.

Being someone else.

Hai. I feel like, reinventing myself. But that's pretty hard to do :\ I wish people knew me :( like really knew me. But I dont think anyone REALLY knows me.

Anyway, I think I wanna make a new blog. Or change this url or something. Idk. I wanna make an anonymous blog. That'd be cool. That way I wouldn't have to think twice before blogging about something... -wtf am I talking about? I dont have anything secretive things to blog about but can't anyway -.- Ahh.

My life is becoming duller, no shit. Lately, I'm always in a foul mood. I'm less, me now too. I'm sure some of you have noticed in school, I'm more.. haha, quieter. Or so I feel. I just feel so, idk. Anti social.

I have developed a, "I don't really care" thing now. People say people do it somehow has no effect to me no more. I think my self esteem issues are getting worse :(

Sigh. I need major help.

Lately all I've been doing since school start is drown myself with studying. I don't even do homework -.- I keep forgetting.

I still need to buy my molskine. I need a book where I can pour everything im feeling. And molskine would be great. It's pretty. I laik.

I'm becoming dull :) How brilliant.

What is wrong with the world? Or is it just me?

x.

I dont know why.

I don't really know why I bother blogging. So anyway, school started, bla bla bla. I'm leaving this blog forever :)

Bye. Okay, maybe not forever... but yeah. Heh :D

X.

Officially a new year.

How was New Years for me?

Me, Marinna, bunch of other people, Curve.

-not at all what I planned.