"Be who you are".

I'd like to be. -but only problem is .. who am I? People say, "You are who you are". People also say, "You can be anything you want to be". So which is it? If I try to be... something specific, am I being fake? Am I not being true to myself? -but then yet again, what is my true self?

How do I truly know who I am right now is really who I am? How can anyone know? Is it even possible? Is being fake when you feel like you're lying about yourself? -but what if we're so used to lying to ourselves and being so convincing that one day we ourself can't be sure of which or was ever the real "me".

"She's so fake". Something I hear get thrown a lot in conversations amongst people these days. I ask myself, how do they know she's fake? What if thats .. her. The real her.

How can you tell apart fakes from the .. not.

Everybody change. So are there such people who actually are who they are? Or is the change apart of who they are?

Are you who you are?

Is there even such a thing as actually being who you TRULY are?


-Or maybe I just think this way cause I'm so unsure of who I actually am.

Take it from me.

February's almost ending. How fast. 2 months down, another 10 to go.

These past few weeks has been pretty chilled. A few hang outs, stay backs at KP, KDE moments, pretty nice actually. 

Music, him, my room, friends, Aisha has definitely made my month a better month :) 

This is just a phase.  A phase I know I'll get over.. maybe not soon, but definitely will get over. I hope you understand. I know its disappointing, I know you may blame yourself, if ever you were to find out, and thats just the thing, i dont want that. I hope you know It's my decision and you have no play in this. You are definitely not to be blamed. 

You've taught me how to tell right from wrong, and I'm glad to say you've succeeded but ...I still chose the wrong. Why is that? .. Maybe because sometimes, a little wrong can be a lot more fun. -but then again, are we here on earth to have fun? Sigh. 

Wrong. Right. Wrong. Right. Sins and deeds.  


*and the guilt dawns on her as he kisses her forehead and says"I thank god you've turned out to be an honest young lady. I love you."


Lying to keep two hearts from breaking.

Bleh.

I have no fitness. I dont wanna run. I dont wanna play tennis. I dont wanna do any form of sports this year.

Thanks.