Paper cut promises.

What exactly is the point we promise when we know we aren't gonna keep it? 'Promises are made to be broken'? I mean, seriously, what the hell.

Anyway, Science today. Paper one was o-k lah, but paper two was hard. KH was shit. I didn't study at all, so yeah. People kept telling me it was easy for it was just common sense, BUT I DON'T SEE HOW IT COULD BE COMMON SENSE ! :( Math tomorrow. Then, I'M DONE WITH MID TERMS. Ho-yeah.

I burnt my tongue, I got a paper cut, I fell down. How fun was today, right?! :)

"OMG, HE IS SO HOT I WANT TO BAKE COOKIES ON HIM!" :(

Oh, my name was in the papers yesterday. HOW COOL IS THAT? Nah, not really. Scary lah. Anyway, I didn't know shit about it seeing I don't read the paper. Syed Harris told me. So, I googled my name, AND THERE IT WAS :) Hahahahaha.

I need a friend. :(

Peace out.

X.

Love is my weapon

Emotions are very complicated. I don't like it. But then again, we'd all be stoned zombies without emotions. It'd be so dull.

BUT, it'd be simple, don't you think?

I feel so hallow all of a sudden. Ok, not really. I've been feeling like this for weeks. I guess, I've been hiding from it. Keeping myself busy. But at times like these (when no one talks to me), I really do feel empty.

I figured it out.

You see, we all (some of us) like to think we're a kid at heart. Sure, that phrase has been thrown around lots of times. BUT, it is impossible to be so. Unless you're.. special. As much as we like to think we're carefree and not serious all the time, well, we are still not kids at heart. We're MUCH more complicated compared to when we were younger. How we think and how our emotions work now compared to then is completely different.

If someone were to steal your candy when you were younger, you'd probably just feel frustrated and cry and then forget about it and you'd be friends again. But now, you can't really do that, can you? Someone steals your boyfriend, you're sworn to be enemies forever, or at least that's what you hope. You can't just forget it, right? Maybe eventually you will. But, it's different with kids, to them, they never were 'not friends'. They don't keep their emotions in for long. They cry, and that's it. I guess, as we grow older, the place we keep our emotions get bigger too, so we keep our emotions longer. (Joke).

We bring these troubles upon ourselves. We think our life is messed up, and maybe it is, but it's only messed up if we keep looking at our misery in life. We just got to look at the bright sides of things, right? Or at least we could try.

Remember, there are always others who are happy while we're in misery.

So, just suck it up and hope for the better in the the future.

2009, I'm not giving up on you.

X.

A knight to save the night.

Hello, everybody. It's a Sunday and I have mid terms tomorrow! BM and History. Oh, boy! :)

So just got back from Bangsar with Aza, Shannen and Azam. We um, studied um, math. Yeahh....that's it! We studied math! :)

Haha, it was um, ok. Nice seeing Aza and Shannen again. I'VE MISSED THEM.

Baha. Bye :)

Go home, Simba!

Hello. So, one day down, five more days to go.

Art was HAHA! I color like a 5 year old cause I'm cool like that. No lah, I just got lazy a quarter way coloring. Mind you, I HAD TO USE COLOR PENCILS! I couldn't find my oil pastels.

Anyway, I'm gonna stay up tonight or wake up in the morning to study History. I only can study History when everything is quiet. And I find it quite calming to study in the mornings like at 3 a.m. I use to do it last year. Haha.

Will blog later again. I think. Bye :)

Memories.

Isn't it weird how a certain song can trigger so much memory? Just because you listened to that song a lot during a certain period of your life, in the future, that song will always remind you of that certain period of time you went through.

A song now can mean so much. It can hold so much memory to you. Who gave it to you, how you got to know the song, how it use to make you feel, etc.

It also can remind you of people :)

Examples?

Little Jackie and the song Sweet about me by Gabriella Cilmi reminds me of Farah. Farah Aisyah. Lol. I remember we use to exchange songs with each other and use to write it in a piece of scrap torn paper to remember the name of the song. Oh, and the Sweet about me song reminds me of the time when we all went to Telawi together and asked bunch of random MEAN people to fill up the forms! Haha. Me and Farah got so little compared to you guys's (Shannen, Fidah, Aza, Teng).

Songs by Mozella reminds me of Azim. Haha. I introduced him to that singer. I GAVE LOTS OF SONGS TO HIM TOO! Mozella reminds me of Azim I guess cause I listened to a lot of Mozella songs during the time I was close to Azim.

I'll make a man out of you from Mulan reminds me of Hazim! Cause me and him would sing that song while we were skyping with the other rangers? Haa, good times, good times.

I'm Shakin' by Rooney reminds me of Yazmin. Cause during MSSM 2008, that was her alarm song to supposedly 'wake her up'. I assure you, I use to wake up hearing to the alarm, and I would go shower, when I come back in the room the alarm would still be ringing and she'll be sound asleep.

Etc.

Awwwww :')

Edit.

So, this is super weird. Me and my dad were watching AI and Rod Stewart sang Maggie May, right? Suddenly my dad said,

"You know Nana, one day in the mere future, when you suddenly hear this song, you'll remember the times when me, you and Joe were in the car driving back from me picking you guys up from school in 2004/2005 singing our lungs out to this song. "

This happened RIGHT after I blogged about how songs can contain so much memories.

Ahh. Coincidence or what. :)

Kris Allen.

Hello. So I didn't go to school again today. Cause I had BM one-to-one classes in the morning! Sigh. I hate BM. But, since my BM is total C R A P, I had no choice but to go. So anyway, Kris Allen won. YAY! Haha. I watched like a bit of it this morning, then I had to go to tuition. Super sad. When my brother told me in the car that Kris won, I was like, OMGAREYOUSERIOUSDONTYOUDARELIETOME! Went back, googled search, and he didn't lie. Super.

Tuition again later. Double yay.

EXAMS OFFICIALLY STARTS TOMORROW. Wish me luck!

Friday.Monday.Tuesday.Wednesday.Thursday.Friday.

Both Fridays aren't important subject. Such as art, PE, and mandarin. So technically I only have 4 days of exams. Triple yay.

ok, BYEBYE :)

Calm down.

You know when you watch a movie or read a book and you try to figure out who's the bad guy? And sometimes you misinterpret and the guy you thought was good was actually the bad guy at the end of the story? Well, I guess it's like that in life too. We'll meet lots of people and we won't know whether they're the good guy or the bad guy. Sure, we could assume and hope that our assumptions are right but what if they were wrong? If we're lucky, somewhere along our story we call life, they will show their true colors and we'll know whether they are a friend or a foe.

And yes, I'M NOT AT SCHOOL. Shut up. I'm studying. So it's all good. :)

Oh, and I'm sick too. So, yeah. Awesome.

X.

p/s: I took that picture.

The feeling at the pit of your stomach.

You know when you ask for something you know you won't get cause it's wrong or bad? And when you don't get it you get all frustrated and sad. But, what happens when you get it? YOU GET GUILT, that's what.

So, here I am, not at school (obviously), and I feel bad for not going to school. It's weird though, I mean last week my mom was all screaming at me when I told her I didn't want to go to school, but last night all I said was I wanted to study at home and not at school and she was like, ok. And at first I had that feeling of satisfaction, but then as I thought about it, isn't it bad to skip school? I mean my exams are coming. But then I reassure myself that I'm studying. Yes, I have been studying, don't get me wrong, but why am I feeling guilty?!

It's all a part of your plan, huh, mom? Well, I'm not falling for it! I'm gonna study now. Bye bye.

X.

GO AWAY, FEELING OF GUILT. I have nothing to feel guilty about. It's JUST school. Right? :\

HAPPY DAY! :D (Sarcasm).

I'm having one of those days. You know those days that the minute you wake up you know it's gonna be an awful day. I started the day by crying due to frustration and stress. Total wtf. In school, I didn't learn shit. Fuck it. I told my mom I didn't wanna go to school in the morning she started screaming and shit. Oh, and my left contacts freaking tore in my eye. So I spent the whole day in school with only one eye in good sight. Went home, feeling super lethargic may I add, had lunch and slept. Slept till my maid woke me up saying my Ustaz is here. After agama, went to sleep some more. Till about 7 or so. So I spent my whole day sleeping, really. Cause in class all I did was sleep. For real.

In conclusion, TODAY REALLY, REALLY SUCKED.

[Insert cursings].

Something special.

Kamusta? :)

Ok so today has been progressive. I studied, sleep, and watched bunch of philipino movies.

So, yay me!

Ikaw ang lahat sa akin.

A promise of a new day.

Currently am doing math in my room with music playing softly. Yes, I didn't go to school. Why? Cause I have a bad tummy ache, lazy and I wanted to study? Ok so maybe I didn't, but I've been studying, right? So yeah. Studied from 7-8 then watched tv till eleven. Now I'm gonna have to study again. So short post for now. Just wanted to inform I didn't go to school 0:)

Lots of love,
NANA.

Mr Blue Sky, oh please?

Hello. I'm super sad. No more tennis trainings. Which means, BACK TO SCHOOL! I feel like crying :'( Hmmf.

So had the stupid flag giving ceremony shiz today at Sekolah Cockraine (?). It was super HOT and STUFFY and BORING to the max. Even the teachers were fighting NOT to sleep. Phfch. Even that dude seating up on the stage slept.

Stupid.

Currently am texting and listening to bunch of Frank Sinatra's songs. :)


WE DON'T NEED NO EDUCATION.
Hey, teachers! Leave them kids alone.

- Pink Floyd.

The game we can't cheat in.

Ever played the Goosebumps book game? You know the one where you read the situation and at the bottom of the page you get to choose what you wanna do next? And it'll be something like this;

a) Jump on the flying monkey. (Go to page 19)
b) Try to escape. (Go to page 90)

Yeah. And every choice you make, determines whether you die or live at the end of the book.

I guess, life is pretty much like this book. Every decision you make in your life determines who you'll be in the future.

Rich or poor, Happy or sad, Successful or not, etc.

Thus, always take your decisions seriously.

You see, we all know this. But yet, we take it so lightly.

I know my PMR is coming, but I'm not studying! As much as I know that this exam determines what stream I take in Form 4. Sigh.

Help me, for devils are whispering in my ear constantly.

Models in magazines.

Hello everybody :)

I ended up not going to school at all after tennis. Today, instead of going back to school for math period, I went to have lunch with the family for a little celebration for my brother.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Joe. Have fun being 19. Your last year being a teenager ;)

After the lunch at OU, I followed my brother to Bangsar Village to buy his Brickenstock (is that how you spell it?) sandals. OVERPRICED so called comfortable sandals. sigh.

Had History tuition. I hate History. Hmmf.

No school again tomorrow. Bahaaa.

-Nana.

Perpetual Bliss.

Being the awesome person I truly am, I ended up not going to school at all. Haha. But tomorrow I'll have to. I think. Gah. Oh wells. I just wish I could skip the whole week. I'm so lazy to go. Ugh. I'm currently bored. Like really bored. Am skyping, Texting and Chatting. mhm. And my like is super numb. Oh, and my contacts aren't out from my eyes yet. God, let me remember to take it out. Currently skyping with dearest Shannen. She's pelik >: )

BYE. :)

Privileged.

Hello. I haven't blogged in a while. Sorry bout that. So I spent my three days of Holiday in Penang. Sucked, really. On Sunday, I practically spent my whole day in the car bored to death. 7 friggin long hours in the car! Blegh.

So, I just found out that MSSMKl training started today and my stupid school didn't inform me. Stupid. Stupid. I could have missed half the day of school today! Ugh. Thank god Ryan told me about it and I made my dad call Coach Zul to confirm. So i'm going tomorrow. Which means i'll be missing half the day tomorrow. Oh yay! :) Well, it isn't actually half the day. I'll probably be at school after break. :\ mhmm.

Kh project nearly done. Sejarah nearly done. Geo I sent it dah. SO I'M BACK ON TRACK! Now, just all the agama Pafa's and Hafazans. Sigh.

Toodles. :)