Inhale. Exhale.

Abang and I at Hyde Park.

Is back at home. Home sweet home? Mhmm. Not so sure bout that. School today was fine. Though i'm pretty much still jet lagged so I didn't get a wink of sleep last night which led to me feeling rather sleepy during the classes! Especially Bio. We were in the lab and the fan blowing, the sun shining on me, god, I could just sleep there and never wake up.

So it's scary how I'm starting to give up.. I've given up tennis. Since I don't play competitively anymore. I'm starting to get sick of ballet. I'm starting to just give up on my studies. The stupid part is, I'm planning to add yet another subject just to add more misery in my life. English Lit. Apparently it's hard work. Should I? Idk. So anyway, as I was saying, everything that use to define me, is slowly fading away. Sucks to be me. And another thing I've given up on is boys. Haha. This, I have given up a pretty long time a go, though. I don't think I've liked anyone in a long time.

It just scares me.

When it was just you and me and the skies above us.

Ola ! :) Currently still here in Spain. I am actually alone in the hotel room right now as the mom and brother has gone to see the flamenco dance and my auntie and grand auntie off shopping. I have decided to stay here in the room. Why? Me, myself haven't got a clue! This trip is slowly coming to an end and I squirm at the thought of going back to my busy life back home. I just realised how stressful school is! I can barely cope with form four syllabus! I'm really afraid I might not catch up and have to either go to Art's stream (-which I don't want cause everything's in malay!) or move to an international school. I do not want to go to an international school because I do not want to burdon my parents with the expensive fees and such. Plus, if other people can cope, why can't I? When I get back to Malaysia (-which is next week) , I will have to study loads more and get GOOD results for mid terms.

I'm excited to go to back to London. Frankly, I don't really know why. I just love it there. Will not be staying in an apartment like last week, instead will be saving money by staying with my grand aunt in Bromley. I absolutely love her house. It's very cozy and comfortable. Since my grand aunt lives London, I've never really gotten the chance to get to know her, but now after this Spain trip I am glad to have learn loads more about her and her late husband. They lived an exciting and adventurous life. I hope when I grow up I would live a life like theirs.

This trip has been great so far. I wish it doesn't have to end. But then again, I do miss home and daddy and my maid and tokmak! Haha.

X.

Nada comprehendo!

Currently in Granada , Spain. Was at Mabella and Cordoba. I like Spain. Not too cold, VERY sunny. Hitam lagi lah selepas ni. (y) :P

Anyway, this blog post is to say....

I MISS BACK HOME.

Haha I can't believe I'm saying it! But I do.

But the thought of the 14 hour flight I have to go through makes me sick :\



- I can't believe of all people its you i'm missing most.

The life of a polar bear.

HELLO THERE, LOVES :D

I'm currently here in London and boy it's great here. The weather is superb. Sunny. But today it's a bit gloomy. Oh well. Damn it good to not have to think of school work and the life I've left behind temporally back home. Today's the fourth day here .. I think. Lol. Um, it's currently 9:01 a.m. here and going off soon. The shopping here is fun :) Fun but tiring. But it's damn nice here lah. I wish I could stay here. Okay, maybe not. But, you know. Lol.

Okay, got to go shower now. BYE :)

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The story of the crying walls.

Okay, so I wake up and see these white things on the wall and look up an my wall up there is like cement. Wtf :\ It's due to my walls crying too much. Haha. No, seriously. It's like leaking. Oh well. What a good way to leave my room.
So I'm leaving tonight and I haven't packed shit nor have I bought the things I may be needing over there. But at least my iPod's charged. But at times like these is when I wish I had a MacBook rather than an iMac. :( I still have no idea why I decided to buy an iMac instead of a MacBook. Whatever. Lol. It's pretty! I've chipped the sides a bit though. BY ACCIDENT. My heart literally stopped and I thought I would die that second- okay exaggeration much. :P Okay, so there's a bucket to catch the falling water, and it sounds like those unclosed tap, like, drip, drip, drip and its making me feel like I wanna pee! :( I woke up early today. Which is 9 thanks to Azim who bbmessengered me. My phone just wouldn't stop vibrating! First it was Aisha with her two calls and text this morning, then it was the calendar notifying me some birthdays and shit. Then it was Azims bbm then it was FB emails. I was like STOP VIBRATING FOR GOD SAKES. And for each thing it vibrates twice! So, wow.
Today's actually cross country, but I'm too lazy to go + mom doesn't let me and I'm not in the mood? BUT IM SO SORRY GREEN HOUSE. If it wasn't for my mom I would still have gone btw. Regardless of my laziness. Sorry green house. Hope you guys do great.
MSSKL tennis is coming. D: Don't feel like playing underneath the hot hot sun and melting. :D But I'm quite excited. Whaaa? lol.
Anyway, to everyones who'll be going to Paramore tonight, HAVE FUN :D
Now I have to figure out what the hell to do in the plane for 14 hours :\
Sigh, I really wish I had a laptop to kill time at the airport or whatever.

Anyway, GOODBYE. Will be back in two weeks+