Liar, liar.

We take things for granted. Seriously. All of us. We are able to speak, but we choose to use it to lie. Everybody lies. Some more often than others. But bottom line is we all do it. Too many lies has been told till the extend that we are all constantly having to wonder whether the person is lying or not. Whats the point of talking when the things we say mean nothing anymore? Even though you're telling the truth, the person you're telling to is probably at least 20% in doubt that it is the truth. Nobody really believes what anyone says anymore. Probably cause we know better. Some of us don't even trust our closest friends. Cause we know they too are capable to lie.

So, now what?

"Trust no one" ?

Maybe.

Lets get it on.

Hello, hello. School was fine. Watched Slumdog Millionaire for double period of English today. I love not studying :) Some marching band came during CCA meeting period. Sucked. Had to sit under the sun for that. Phfch.

Sigh. Haven't started shit for Sejarah project which is due tomorrow. I swear, they don't give us enough time! Hmmf. I'm so screwed.

Got tuition 6-10 today. ugh. I haven't finish my karangan homework.

Omg. I'm going nuts. I've got to calm down.

I'm not gonna sleep the whole night tonight if I have to.

I MUST FINISH MY SEJARAH PROJECT OR IM SCREWED !

Lots and lots of love,
Nana :)

Pop tart supper nights.

Hello, fellow readers :) I'll just make a short one for now. I got to go get ready for tuition. 5-10 p.m. How awesome.

I've been really bored lately. To the extend that I have been bumming around doing Facebook quizzes! Gosh.

Edit.

JUST GOT BACK FROM TUITION! >:) It was mega awesome. Mwahaha. Anyway, bye. :)

The final touch.

I've been missing Hartamas and last year and shit, right?

Being the VERY smart person I know I am, I went through old photos during our vain days in school. I swear, it was like the final touch to my misery. Like the lemon on my stinging wound. G.R.E.A.T :)

Acting like they know me.

Hello. Mondays. Ahh. THE WORSE DAY OF THE WEEK. Thank god Friday's a public holiday this week. :) Might have to go to Penang and miss ballet! :(

School today was ok.

Tuition was canceled today. Mhmm.

What's wrong with me? This year is so horrible! Ah, can't wait to just get this year over with. - ok, maybe I'm being dramatic. So it isn't THAT bad. But it's bad. Worse than last year. FER SURE. But I guess that normal and I just got to deal.

It's only the fourth month of the year, another eight months to go. Who knows, maybe along the way it'll get better, right? :)

I realise my posts now are mostly rants about how awful my life is going.

THIS HAS GOT TO CHANGE !

From now on, it's all gonna be rainbow skittles and fluffy cotton candy clouds sorta posts.

Rantings are only allowed if absolutely NECESSARY. :)

it was just a dream.

You know when you have those really bad dreams and you wake up and you sigh with relief that it was just a dream?

Well, I was just lying on my bed just now waiting for myself to fall asleep, and I started thinking, I wonder how I would be feeling right then if I were to wake up the next morning to go to Hartamas instead of Sri Garden. And I thought, what if I were to wake up to find this past I don't know how many months were just a dream? What if I were to wake up to find that it was only middle of 2008. Oh how I wish to be able to wake up and say ,

"Oh, it was just a bad dream".

and continue with my life happily.

sigh.

KIDDOS.

Was playing around with the kiddos with photobooth. I was interviewing them about their trip to Disneyland Hong Kong :)

EASY LIKE SUNDAY MORNING

SUNBURN. SUNBURN. SUNBURN. SUNBURN. I'm so dark :(

Days go by.

Sundays. sigh. I use to love Sundays... but now its just full of

"OHMYGOD, there's school tomorrow!" :(

So that just ruins my Sunday. phfch. I just got back from playing tennis with the family.

I need to go out with friends. Pronto. I'm gonna have a breakdown soon at how much I despise Sri Garden and how much I miss Hartamas. Well, I mean Sri Garden's fine and all, but it doesn't feel... right. You know? sigh. I've been giving mummy hints that I wanna go back. But she doesn't seem to budge. sigh. I guess it'd be different anyway even if I go back. I wouldn't fit in no more. I DONT FIT IN ANYWEHERE. Homg. lol.

I'm off to have a long cold shower. BYE.



TwitTwit :)

The rain ain't gonna stop us now.

Hello. Ah, how I love the weekends. Why can't EVERYDAY be a weekend? I mean, weekends are such carefree days. *deep sigh. smile.

This week has been very exciting. But a new week awaits me. And frankly, i'm not looking forward to it. Not at all. I hate school. I don't enjoy school as how I use to last year. (Gee, wonder why). Whatever, I just got to deal.

I was looking forward to ballet all week and I was woken up by my mum saying ballet today is canceled. Ah wells.

Geo Project almost done. Sejarah and KH project I haven't done shit. Sigh. I'm so screwed.

It scares me at how much misery it may bring by just meeting ONE person. I mean, if I didn't meet this person, MY LIFE WOULD BE A THOUSAND TIMES BETTER. Stupid rumors. You piss me off.

Tuition later. 6-8.

I miss tennis. A lot. I mean last year was like tennis mania ! I mean, with the endless training and tournaments. Ah, so fun. I miss it. I missed like 4 or 3 tournaments this year already. And I haven't been training. I miss it la :(

Another thing I miss terribly is SMKSH. I miss all my friends, the school, the staybacks, the endless gossips, the fun. Sigh.

Regret moving.
REGRETS,
we're so full of it.

Early morning breeze.

It's currently 7:41 in the morning and i'm blogging. Total wth. I can't accept how dark I am. I mean I was dark before and now I'm even darker. LIKE WHA?

So anyway, am eating breakfast and I'm stealing peoples wifi. I'm going to watch the finals later and take my medal. Will blog later.

Lots of love,
NANA :)

My hands are tied.

Me, Noor Sufianna Shazuddin am the bronze medalist of MSSKL tennis year 2009 :)

Haha. So I'm currently at Tropicana Club supposedly studying. Baha, brought my laptop. So yeah. I just finished lunch. I'm bored. Like realy bored. See, I brought my math homework, but I don't know how to do it. It's confusing, k. I need my brother. So my math just has to wait.

I'm not going to school tomorrow. Which means, I'm missing school the whole week. I bet when I go back, there will be lodsa homework and stuff. I got to catch up a whole week worth of work. Then, if i'm chosen for MSSM this year, the trainning will mean i'd be missing classes till break or after break. How exciting.

But overall, I LIKE THIS WEEK. Alot. Why can't every week be like this? ... ok maybe not. It's so hot. I'm freaking sunburnt k. It hurts. And, and, I'm like 10 times darker now. LIKE WTH. I mean, hard to believe, right? Sigh. My face was all red yesterday. And today it's just dark. HMMF.

My blog is getting more boring. TEHE. Sorry, readers :)

When things dont go right.

So, second day of NOT playing. Ugh. Whatever.

Don't you just hate it when in overall your life seems pretty pleasant. But, then comes in those small tiny problems that gangs up and makes your life seem like a total wreck. It even can cause massive breakdowns.

KH kerja kayu not done, Geo project not done, Sejarah project not done, I hate my school, I miss Hartamas like shit, I miss all my friends, I think im gonna do really badly for PMR.

At Jalan Duta today, I was talking to my friend (Hartamasian Form Five) ANDDDD he told me he got 8A's for PMR. And he said it was nothing. And it's easy and shit. But, there are people who get 1A only for PMR too, so how could it possibly be THAT easy, right? SO THEREFORE I HATE SMART PEOPLE LIKE HIM. Hmmf. I'm gonna die for PMR. Sureeeee, all you people who's gone through PMR would probably say it's easy. I mean, now, I would say UPSR is easy. BUT, it's different when you're doing the exam you know. BAH. I'm confirmed gonna die for BM, KH, GEO, SEJARAH, AGAMA. Those are the confirmed one that is. The rest, I may have a chance.

Now i'm asking myself, WHY THE HELL AM I SAYING ALL THIS? I should be studying. RIGHT? Right.

Why doesn't it seem like i'm seating for PMR this year? I can't put it in my head that i'm seating for a major exam. I CANT BLOODY MAKE MYSELF STUDY.

Omg, Nana. Just start studying already. You have.. (no idea how many months more to PMR)....(Oh, wait, when is PMR?) -.-

Bye. Off to shower and to tuition for 4 hours. Horray (?) :)

The exhilarating feeling i get from you.

Hello. MSSKL tennis today. Aw, it was nice spending time with all the tennis Hartamasians. I MISS HARTAMAS SO EFFIN' MUCH. Hmmf. So anyway, I didn't play today. First round I got a by/bye (?). Second round playing on Wednesday. I'm so nervous la. Sigh. I really hope I get to be in the MSSM team this year. Or I'll be really sad.

Today, some form five dude said he thought I was form 4 / 5. He said I looked MATURED. Oh my god, I was laughing so much :P

You're heart is beating on my hand.

Hello :) So overall my weekend was a pretty normal one. I played tennis this morning and am sorta happy to say I DONT SUCK THAT BADLY. I mean I thought I was gonna play a million times worse. So, ALWAYS KEEP YOUR EXPECTATIONS REALLY LOW ! Bahahaha.

I just had a really long cold shower. I feel so clean and fresh. HEHE. :D

OH AND IM ON TWITTER. Bahaha. Just wanted to try it out. Come stalk me on Twitter by following me? :D

Sugar coated valentine.

Hello fellow readers. Today is by far the worse Saturday. I've been bumming around doing nothing since 10. Nana, you got to get a life. Seriously. Hmmf.

I miss my music. All the old music I use to listen to. I miss it. Most of the songs are in my iBook's iTunes. Not in my HP's. So pooh. And, being the lazy bumbum I am, I'm to lazy to transfer la. Btw, ever thought that your iTunes is self-deleting songs?! I ALWAYS THINK THAT WAY! Cause, sometimes I KNOW I have that song, but it's no longer on my iTunes. Therefore, iTunes self-deletes songs. HMMF. Call me delussional I dont care.

It amazes me how much a simple song can mean so much. The lyrics, so meaningful and so deep.

I need to go on my music search again. Need new songs. I haven't been download in ages. And I should start soon. :)

My Sweet Summer Drizzle Playlist.

Britt Nicole, Corrine Bailey Ray, Duffy, A Fine Frenzy, Hope, The Hush Sounds, Kate Nash, Kina Grannis, Lisa Dames, Mandy Moore, Meiko, Michelle Branch, Mozella, Nena, The Pierces, Priscilla Ahn, Rilo Kiley, Sia, Tamia, The Weepies.

and many more to be added :)

Adaptations.

Another Friday. Got mengaji later. School was fine. I guess.

I'm totally freaking out. MSSKL tennis this Monday. It'll be such a bummer since Yazmin isn't playing. And, and I haven't trained in- what? 4/5 monts? Eff la. I'm so not gonna get to go to Semi's or Quarters. And, I won't be chosen for MSSM and I won't get to go to Sarawak. Eff this.

Sometimes I wish I never stopped tennis but sometimes I prefer not playing tennis. GAH. I'm so confused. I feel like I've lost apart of me. Tennis use to define me in some ways.

It's too late to start tennis again though. AND DONT YOU DARE SAY ITS NEVER TO LATE. Cause it is. In many ways. I've stopped. And there's nothing I can do about it. So I'm going lose. and I'm not going to be on the MSSM KL team this year. but, I CHOSE THIS. I knew this would happened when I chose to stop training.

SO NANA WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET WITH YOURSELF?

"It's just tennis la".

Eff you. I wish tennis to me was just tennis to me. But I guess it never was just tennis to me.

So sure, even when I use to train I was never THAT good, but seriously, now without any training, it's as though all my training before this NEVER HAPPENED. I'm that sucky now. Like BudakBaruBelajar tennis.

This is so frustrating.

I'm not feeling my blogskin. I needa change it soon.

A wish upon a star.

I've realised that it's so hard to make me happy now compared to when I was young. Well I mean now, say my mum gets me a new phone. Sure it'll make me happy- but for what? 2 months? Then I'm all up to ask for a new one that just came out. It is definitely no longer cheap to keep us teenagers smiling and happy. I mean compared to when I was young, my dad would buy me a 5 dollar present and it'd keep me happy till it breaks. Of course in that case, my dad could buy a new one every time it broke cause it was only 5 dollars. But now, what makes us teenagers happy are at least hundreds of dollars at worth. And we can't expect out parents to buy us a new one everytime a newer version comes out, right? but... we still do. And at times, our parents who just wants to see us smile buys them. Sigh.

Why can't 5 dollar toys make me happy anymore? :(
cause if it could, I would be happy all the time.

Colors of the wind.

OMG BALLET EXAM WAS HORRIBLE. Messed up a lot. Bye bye distinction and hello Pass or Merit.

So watched Confessions of a shopaholic today. and YES, I just watched it! Dah lah alone. Nana, you gotta get a life :)

I've got lots to blog about! SOON. soon. When i'm less lazy, k?

Maybe tonight. :)

Luckless romance.

How was your weekend? :)

So Friday was SportsDay. I got in total of five medals. 2 gold, 2 silver, and 1 bronze. I got BestAthlete for girls class 2. Such a total lol man!

Then, Saturday. Had the last ballet class till my grade six exam this Tuesday! Like, omg right?! Yeah. Then later went for Ozzy's Suprise Party. It was total fun, fun, fun! Practically just danced and took lotsa photos. Though I have no idea where are all the photos :)



OHMYGOD.I.GOT.SCHOOL.TOMORROW.OH.NO.KILL.MEH.SO.LAZY.LA.SAD.FACE.

X.

Update in my life.

Hello, so this post is for an update on my life. No, not another one of my RANDOM post I usually do.

So, school has been fine. Sports day this Friday. I HATE RUNNING. So far 2 medals. Gold and silver. I broke 400m record by a second. Total lol man. Other than the horrible running, school seriously has been a lot better for me. Thank god.

How's my studies? It's been ok. A lot of tuition still. Oh, and OMG, SEJARAH EFF YOU. YOU HURT MY BRAIN !

Tennis MSSKL soon. Feel like crying. Cause, this years MSSM is in freaking SARAWAK! and I have a 70% chance of not making the team.

I get annoyed easily now. I feel really bad though. Cause when i'm annoyed, it really shows! I'm sorry! I feel really bad. I swear. Stupid 'time of the month' side effects la ni.

Enough of an update.

X; Nana. :)

Hello, stranger.

When I see people who are complete strangers to me, I play this game where I try to guess the persons background. Maybe he was a clown? or maybe is learning how to be a nurse? ..etc. Sometimes, it gets really funny till I giggle to myself :) I don't know, but there's so many people on this earth. What could all our purposes be? Are we somehow, someway, connected? Maybe. :)

I'd like to think that there's someone out there who looks JUST like me and is just like me too. TEHE :)

Goodbye.

When I was small, I seriously think I was weird. What I thought of and stuff was just... weird. I use to get very emotional when I see old people. Every time I see an old lady walking by herself, I use to think

"Why is she alone? Where's her children?".

I remember when I was about 7 and I followed my mum to the bank in Taman Tun, there was this old lady selling keropok outside and I whispered to my mum

"Mum, buy her keropok".

But my mum just said she didn't one any. So I just looked at the old lady with this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach while walking back to the car.

So in the car I asked my mum

"Ma, don't you feel sorry for the old lady?".

And she said with a smile,

"Nana, a lot of people by her keropok, look"

I looked at the lady, and there were people by her keropok and I smiled.

Until now, I get very emotional when it comes to old people. I think it's cause I imagine my grandmother being in a position like that. I love my granny. She's really old though.

Scary part is... I'm starting to have that feeling. The feeling that she's going soon....

Devil on my shoulder.

Ever had that feeling where you know you're suppose to do that little something. But something in you is giving all sorts of reasons not to do it? What do you do when this happens? 90% of the time, I give in to the 'something in me'. How about you?

I mean for example, yesterday. After 200 meter running, waited for driver, got into the car, and I knew I had to put on my seat belts but there was something in me saying

"Nah, it's ok, just fall asleep. Pretend you forgot".

When all I had to do was just move my hand a bit and buckle the seat belts. THATS ALL. But, yet again the 'something in me' took over me. I didn't buckle my seat belts.

The 'something in me' always wins. In everything. I should fight it.

I WILL FIGHT IT.

Bye bye, 'something in me' feeling.

>:D

p/s: Is my new layout nice? :) Shannen helped mehh. I did the header though. Mhmm. Doesn't the purple alien look like it's going to my picture? HEHE. :P THANKS SHANNEN BTW. You awesome. :)