Lets sing love songs in the rain.

Okay, so hey :) Mid Year Examinations has been over for about two weeks now. Haven't really gone to school since, so I don't really know how's my results, and frankly I can't be fucked. Cause I know it ain't good! :) Oh well, that's what happens when you don't study right? Lesson learnt, lets move on. So, this week is the MSSM training. It's held at Titiwangsa this year instead of the usual- at Jalan Duta. Anyway, this year's MSSM is hosted by Perlis. Sigh. Nothing much there. :\ Not quite excited. I have my reasons.

So I've finished 3 books in a week. Can't seem to go through my fourth one. Been having these headaches and stuff. Or maybe I'm just not in the mood anymore? Whatever, I better finish the fourth book BEFORE this Saturday so I can buy two new ones :) Heh.

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Shooting the moon.

Hello there loves. :)

It's definitely been awhile. So lets update! Not much have happened, really. I recently went to Hartamas' carnival. Met lots of familiar faces and it was nice. Went there without actually planning with anyone. Got out of the car, and Imran was walking pass me. So yeah, pretty much hung out with him the whole day. Him and other form three's. Katrina :P Meow.

I'm going through exams. And it's been horrible. I'm slipping back to 2008. Form two. Didn't study at all. This is definitely NOT good. I will hop on my study mood train (wtf) soon. Probably in a few weeks. Haha.

I'm currently missing lots of people and lots of memories. Especially the SKBD days and Hartamas days. I miss you guys. People I use to hang out with at Hartamas. I feel like we're merely acquaintance now. And during the carnival I really did wanna like hang with you guys, but you guys gave me this awkwardness aura and I just didn't feel like i fit in anymore. I mean how could I right? After a year + absence. Sigh. I just never though we'd be such strangers after everything we've been through. You guys know who you are. If you guys are reading this, I just want you guys to know, I miss you :) And mari kita berlepak and catch up, yes? You have my number. :)

Moving on, I WANT A KIN 1. Haha. :)

Oh, and, lifes been okay. Not bad nor that good. It's ... stable. Haha.

Can't wait for mid years to end! I want to go out :)

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Nana.

I miss.

Hello fellow readers :) So i've been pretty much busy, busy, busy!

This week, I thought, Oh wow, it'll be like any other week. No more sports, or whatever. -but i was wrong! I had public speaking, which I pretty much took the time to talk about nonsense. Haha. So anyway, on Friday, Saturday and Sunday it was SG's MUN fifth conference. I was a reporter. It was fun! I want to be a delegate next year! .. or maybe a reporter again? i doubt it :p I sucked at my job.

So, I really haven't been talking to people lately.

:)

I forget things, people, music. Things that use to make me happy. But when vague and random memories return to me, I really miss it.

Of the olden times.

So I've come to realise that I barely download songs now. I use to download so much songs in a week which lead me to have awesome kick ass songs all the time, but now, I no longer have... therefore, my sense of music suck now :( sigh.

I will TRY and start back though. :)

Going through old songs, ah such memories. :P

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of the color HITAM.

So, hey. As you all may or may not know, i've been on a sports frenzy lately. What with MSSKL olahraga, sports day, MSSKL tennis and what not. Well, as the results, I'm fucking tan. No, not tan. Hitam ah. Haha. Oh well. It's been a while since I was this tan. I mean I remember the days when I was like this.. 24/7 :P

Anyway, moving on to a more serious matter, my cousin passed away today.

*Moment for Al-fatihah for Muslims who are reading.

I was never close to him, but I feel the sadness none the less. Seeing everybody cry, seeing my auntie- his mother, fainting during the burying. It's just heart breaking how sudden death is.

Due to the phone call this morning, I gave a walkover for my semifinals MSSKL tennis match. Sorry, Sher. Hope you do well in Finals! :)

Anyway, that's all.

love,
budak hitam.

For saken love

Hello there loves. So I haven't been studying much.. why? Cause I've been having lots of running days lately. MSSKL Zon Pudu then it was sports heats and sports day. So two weeks of NOTHING school work related has gone into my head. Even when I'm in class I'm not bothered to listen. I'm BEYOND screwed. Next week's Tennis MSSKL. I promise to start back studying after MSSKL. Yes. That's a promise.

So slept over Aisha's house last night. It was Sports day yesterday. it was fun :) After sports day we all went to Nash's house to chill. Haha, I love his house. Over all it was a good day! Chilled with Aisha at Pavi today. Thanks for the lunch, Sha.

Life's been pretty great. :) Alhamdulillah.

Pretty in pink

Hello there non-existing readers.

Instead of showering or doing my homework, I decided to blog. So it's been a pretty boring weekend. Didn't do much. Just went to ballet and thats pretty much it. Life has been pretty dull lately. I can't remember the last time I went out. It's not that I can't, I just don't know who to go out with or where to go out with. Plus finding a day that I'm not busy or lazy is merely imposible these days. I haven't been going online lately. Well, I have, but never enough time to actually talk to people. So I'm sorry people.... not that you care. I guess. Moving on. I just realised that my Adobe Creative Suite 4 is still on my desk and UNINSTALLED. Haha.

Schools been a drag. I can't seem to be bothered with homework, schoolwork or anything much really which scares the shit out of me. I feel so relaxed. Which I know is wrong.

This is stupid. I'm off. BYE :)

Inhale. Exhale.

Abang and I at Hyde Park.

Is back at home. Home sweet home? Mhmm. Not so sure bout that. School today was fine. Though i'm pretty much still jet lagged so I didn't get a wink of sleep last night which led to me feeling rather sleepy during the classes! Especially Bio. We were in the lab and the fan blowing, the sun shining on me, god, I could just sleep there and never wake up.

So it's scary how I'm starting to give up.. I've given up tennis. Since I don't play competitively anymore. I'm starting to get sick of ballet. I'm starting to just give up on my studies. The stupid part is, I'm planning to add yet another subject just to add more misery in my life. English Lit. Apparently it's hard work. Should I? Idk. So anyway, as I was saying, everything that use to define me, is slowly fading away. Sucks to be me. And another thing I've given up on is boys. Haha. This, I have given up a pretty long time a go, though. I don't think I've liked anyone in a long time.

It just scares me.

When it was just you and me and the skies above us.

Ola ! :) Currently still here in Spain. I am actually alone in the hotel room right now as the mom and brother has gone to see the flamenco dance and my auntie and grand auntie off shopping. I have decided to stay here in the room. Why? Me, myself haven't got a clue! This trip is slowly coming to an end and I squirm at the thought of going back to my busy life back home. I just realised how stressful school is! I can barely cope with form four syllabus! I'm really afraid I might not catch up and have to either go to Art's stream (-which I don't want cause everything's in malay!) or move to an international school. I do not want to go to an international school because I do not want to burdon my parents with the expensive fees and such. Plus, if other people can cope, why can't I? When I get back to Malaysia (-which is next week) , I will have to study loads more and get GOOD results for mid terms.

I'm excited to go to back to London. Frankly, I don't really know why. I just love it there. Will not be staying in an apartment like last week, instead will be saving money by staying with my grand aunt in Bromley. I absolutely love her house. It's very cozy and comfortable. Since my grand aunt lives London, I've never really gotten the chance to get to know her, but now after this Spain trip I am glad to have learn loads more about her and her late husband. They lived an exciting and adventurous life. I hope when I grow up I would live a life like theirs.

This trip has been great so far. I wish it doesn't have to end. But then again, I do miss home and daddy and my maid and tokmak! Haha.

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Nada comprehendo!

Currently in Granada , Spain. Was at Mabella and Cordoba. I like Spain. Not too cold, VERY sunny. Hitam lagi lah selepas ni. (y) :P

Anyway, this blog post is to say....

I MISS BACK HOME.

Haha I can't believe I'm saying it! But I do.

But the thought of the 14 hour flight I have to go through makes me sick :\



- I can't believe of all people its you i'm missing most.

The life of a polar bear.

HELLO THERE, LOVES :D

I'm currently here in London and boy it's great here. The weather is superb. Sunny. But today it's a bit gloomy. Oh well. Damn it good to not have to think of school work and the life I've left behind temporally back home. Today's the fourth day here .. I think. Lol. Um, it's currently 9:01 a.m. here and going off soon. The shopping here is fun :) Fun but tiring. But it's damn nice here lah. I wish I could stay here. Okay, maybe not. But, you know. Lol.

Okay, got to go shower now. BYE :)

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The story of the crying walls.

Okay, so I wake up and see these white things on the wall and look up an my wall up there is like cement. Wtf :\ It's due to my walls crying too much. Haha. No, seriously. It's like leaking. Oh well. What a good way to leave my room.
So I'm leaving tonight and I haven't packed shit nor have I bought the things I may be needing over there. But at least my iPod's charged. But at times like these is when I wish I had a MacBook rather than an iMac. :( I still have no idea why I decided to buy an iMac instead of a MacBook. Whatever. Lol. It's pretty! I've chipped the sides a bit though. BY ACCIDENT. My heart literally stopped and I thought I would die that second- okay exaggeration much. :P Okay, so there's a bucket to catch the falling water, and it sounds like those unclosed tap, like, drip, drip, drip and its making me feel like I wanna pee! :( I woke up early today. Which is 9 thanks to Azim who bbmessengered me. My phone just wouldn't stop vibrating! First it was Aisha with her two calls and text this morning, then it was the calendar notifying me some birthdays and shit. Then it was Azims bbm then it was FB emails. I was like STOP VIBRATING FOR GOD SAKES. And for each thing it vibrates twice! So, wow.
Today's actually cross country, but I'm too lazy to go + mom doesn't let me and I'm not in the mood? BUT IM SO SORRY GREEN HOUSE. If it wasn't for my mom I would still have gone btw. Regardless of my laziness. Sorry green house. Hope you guys do great.
MSSKL tennis is coming. D: Don't feel like playing underneath the hot hot sun and melting. :D But I'm quite excited. Whaaa? lol.
Anyway, to everyones who'll be going to Paramore tonight, HAVE FUN :D
Now I have to figure out what the hell to do in the plane for 14 hours :\
Sigh, I really wish I had a laptop to kill time at the airport or whatever.

Anyway, GOODBYE. Will be back in two weeks+

Whats the point in getting to the point?

HEY! :) So, I feel like blogging... So yeah, I will. I didn't go to school today! Cause I had to go renew my passport. Still had to wake up early so that sucked. There was a whole lot of people doing passports too, so you could imagine how long it took! It took like 3 hours, btw. Which is long, right? idk. It felt long. Did nothing there. Just sat.. and waited.. and waited. After everything was done and shit, we (Mom and I) went straight to her office. I went roaming OU for a bit, then she and dad came to have lunch after that, we went looking for coats and shits. No nice coats :( And winter coats make me look so fat. Like a ball. I look like a ball with the jacket. So bleh. So I'll be leaving in about 2 weeks time, and boy am I excited to just relax and have fun :) Though I'd be freezing my ass off! Sigh. Oh well. I'll be missing a week of school! Which means, I'll be missing a few of the assessment papers. :s Oh and I got a new phone! Blackberry Curve, but I haven't activated the Blackberry service thingi... or something. idk. Sportsday is coming, yuck, yuck. Msskl too, double yuck! My season of spending loads of time underneath the sun is coming :) JOY. Not really. Form four is pretty different from form three. Everything seems ten time more! More homework, more class work, more teachers, uhh.. yeah. You get what I mean! I have something on almost EVERYDAY. Let it be tuition, or ballet, or mengaji or tennis. Sigh. I'm one busy girl :) Okay, I'm done blogging.

Oh and I don't know how to watch tv anymore. I have no idea how to on the tv! :(

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Of the new and the old.

OKAY HI. So it's February now... yay. Okay um, well schools a bore. My time is practically FULL everyday.. sigh.
I need to get a life. QUICK!

There is school tomorrow. I WANNA SKIP IT. But how. Mhmm. Think.

Oh, formspring!

http://www.formspring.me/bunnynana

If you hate me please tell me WHY and not just "I HATE YOU". "PEOPLE HATE YOU". Cause well fuck you. At least fucking have the decency to tell me why you bloody hate so I can at least TRY to change! >:( Whats the point in telling me you hate me and not tell me why?

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID IDIOTS.

K thanks ! =) BYEEEE

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So you sailed away?

Wow. January's almost over. That was quick.

Anyway, this week is the third week of school and boy is it tiring. :( Waking up, going to school, come home, eat lunch, homework, tuition, homework. That's my cycle right there. Pretty awesome ain't it? I canceled tennis today. I pretty much gave up on tennis a long time a go. Plus, this year apparently MSSKL only has under 18 which means MSSM would only have under 18 too, which ALSO means, there is NO WAY i'll get picked for MSSM this year :) What a great year it is.

So I'm in Performing Arts again. Though I got accepted in MUN. I decided to enter Performing Arts cause everyone else is in it. Haha. Yeah.

Been playing the guitar lately. Fun :) Fingers hurts like shit.

Enough of an update for this week.

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Very dull month, indeed.

The depth of pure blue.

I like to close my eyes and imagine how I'll be like in 15 years. -but sometimes, we don't become the people we expect to be. Am I the person I expected to be 3 years a go? I guess nothing turns out as we expect in life.

WHEN NOTHING GOES RIGHT.

This is really getting on my nerves. First, I don't get in the class I want to be. Not because I don't deserve to or anything but just cause. ugh, then, I don't get the cool teacher. I get the lame ass ones. Fuck man. This is NOT fair. Screw it. I hate school. School can burn. BURN BURN BURN BURN.

UGH.

Went out today. Boring. I.HATE.GOING.OUT. I wanted to watch Paranormal Activity, but noooooo. ugh.

On a brighter note, I might be taking up English Lit :D Yayyy. Hope I'd be able to (y).

I want to freaking go to sc2 man. Someone, help? :(

Sigh. 2010 doesn't seem like its going so good...

I need something or someone to turn it around.

Also, i have changed my background to white. Cause the black one just hurt my eyes. But now the white one too hurts my eyes.

I rant to much. Shut up, Nana.

Anyway, I've been wanting to go into lots of stuff lately. Like, I feel like I wanna do more public speaking and debating and stuff. Like MUN does in school. But stupidly I didn't join that CCA club. STUPID, right. I just feel like being more active this year in other things BESIDES SPORTS.

Sports teacher has been pastering me to go for training after school so I can be in the athletics team, but I just don't like running! I hate it.

Plus, I have tuition everyday, how to go for training? Sigh. I feel like I'm letting him down :(

I don't even feel like playing MSSKL / MSSM this year. SOMETHINGS DEFINITELY WRONG WITH ME.

I barely chat now days too. I'd like to apologize to the people who I usually chat with. I know i've been off lately. Its just my mood.

Being someone else.

Hai. I feel like, reinventing myself. But that's pretty hard to do :\ I wish people knew me :( like really knew me. But I dont think anyone REALLY knows me.

Anyway, I think I wanna make a new blog. Or change this url or something. Idk. I wanna make an anonymous blog. That'd be cool. That way I wouldn't have to think twice before blogging about something... -wtf am I talking about? I dont have anything secretive things to blog about but can't anyway -.- Ahh.

My life is becoming duller, no shit. Lately, I'm always in a foul mood. I'm less, me now too. I'm sure some of you have noticed in school, I'm more.. haha, quieter. Or so I feel. I just feel so, idk. Anti social.

I have developed a, "I don't really care" thing now. People say people do it somehow has no effect to me no more. I think my self esteem issues are getting worse :(

Sigh. I need major help.

Lately all I've been doing since school start is drown myself with studying. I don't even do homework -.- I keep forgetting.

I still need to buy my molskine. I need a book where I can pour everything im feeling. And molskine would be great. It's pretty. I laik.

I'm becoming dull :) How brilliant.

What is wrong with the world? Or is it just me?

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I dont know why.

I don't really know why I bother blogging. So anyway, school started, bla bla bla. I'm leaving this blog forever :)

Bye. Okay, maybe not forever... but yeah. Heh :D

X.

Officially a new year.

How was New Years for me?

Me, Marinna, bunch of other people, Curve.

-not at all what I planned.